The heart 3

I landed on Psalm 62:8. "Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." The psalmist says that we should pour out our hearts to God. You do not read much about speaking your mind to God. Speaking our mind to God is probably because we cannot afford to "lose our minds" in a discussion with God. In my case I do not get anywhere when I try to intellectually engage with God. However, emotions are real and one cannot deny them. Since the preface to pouring out our hearts is "at all times", We can trust God to listen in good times and bad ones. We can pour out our hearts in joy and in sorrow.
     In my own life, I connect with God several times throughout the day. In the morning, I almost always read with audio the Proverb of the day. That is easy because I only have to look up the day of the month and find the corresponding chapter. I planned to do that every month this year. Now that I am on the 4th month and considering I have read the entire bible about 40 times, I am really irritated that I cannot pull up a single Proverb from the day. I mean later on in the day or at night when Sveta and I pray, I cannot recall a single one. I know it is in there, but why am I not able to pull up something on demand? That really bothers me and I let God know. I have no answer, but I continue the practice. I really like reading the Proverbs and processing the wisdom provided.