Life change - Part 3

The conviction that came to me regarded computer simulation games. At age14 I was introduced to war games- World War Two board games -Guadalcanal, then Jutland, Gettysburg, Third Reich, etc. I was fascinated by them because they engaged my mind. I could play with someone or play by myself. Then in the Army I played Squad leader, NATO, and a platoon level Soviet-NATO game but only by myself. When computer games came out, I started with my new PC in 1995 with Colonization and Civilization. I remember playing various games on the Nintendo such as Mario Brothers and NFL with the kids, but the challenge and complexity attracted me more. Anyway, I went through cycles of playing and giving them up. When I worked on Master's and Doctoral program I had to put them on the shelf. After I completed the doctoral program, I had two laptops and kept one for gaming and one for work and personal use. I would go back and forth between the two, always accomplishing my work responsibility. yet I seemed to be short of time for study, research, reading, and writing.

So after our trip to Arizona I had been separated from the computers for four days. I thought about time management, and I decided to get rid of the computer. Is struggled for the morning as I normally did in the past trying to rationalize the pros and cons. I figured when the computer died, it was a sign to give it up. It was about 9 years old and in excellent condition. The computer simulations did keep me from a number of tempting vices in the past. I simply decided I would invest my time more into research and writing for the orphan cause. So I took the computer out and smashed it with an ax.  I believe that is what I needed to do to end this chapter of my life in order to devote time in another area.